how is a relationship started, when do we know its really over... is there an answer... this is not speaking only of girlfriends but of friends. now don't get me wrong my girl and i are FANTASTIC, I'm speaking of my friendships and past relationships. i think I'm finally starting to understand a lot about it, or maybe i am just meant to be misunderstood, as i am an artist. Vincent, Leonardo, Salvador, fuck even Tu-pac were loners, how does one expect to or even dream to do better than such great minds. then again to me this is not only a daunting task but a goal to be reached, is it possible when you feel as if the most of the world has left you due to your past regrettable mistakes? i don't know... but what i do know is that in the past 7 months i have changed extensively. from the style i dress in to the fashion i go about planning and completing tasks, my mental state has changed. family is now more important than ever to me, I've realized these are the only people in your life who will never leave you, the people who catch you whenever or where ever you happen to fall. but as my dad always says (not the exact words anyway), we can only be judged by our past choices and actions, or how about something more fitting tho his words, once a drug addict always a drug addict. so i can't guide lost friendships or mend hurt feelings, but i can apologize, for my shortcomings, my actions, my non-actions, my absence, and my straight forwardness. in this i ask for no forgiveness, i only try to give solace in the knowledge in the fact i know, for the lack of a better description, what's up. now its up to me to move forward with my art, and give no second thought to the haters, envious losers, and has-been broke ass producers. i am who i am i don't apologize for that, only for the actions I'm not so proud of.
love to those who love, death to those who don't
Dana-Dane
